Motivation

Motivation is a fickle thing. It can hit you at the weirdest times, and when you need it the most, it can disappear, nowhere to be seen.

This winter break, my motivation to accomplish my goals has been lackluster, at best. I needed a break from pushing myself so hard during the fall semester, and I wanted to be lazy and sit around all day not doing anything productive for once. I wanted to sit around all day, talking to friends, watching TV shows, reading books.

But then I realized I’d pushed myself so hard during the fall semester that I had no motivation to not do work either. I mindlessly browsed Reddit, Twitter, and Facebook, just for something to do, not really absorbing anything I saw. I alternately laid around in bed and sat at my desk, doing the same things over and over. I forgot how to have fun.

Even when the new year came around and the break began dwindling shorter and shorter, I found it hard to be productive or have fun. It’s like pushing yourself into one of them makes you forget how to do the other; mindlessly forcing yourself to be productive for an entire semester means that when you finally have that free time, you don’t know what the heck to do with it.

As I type this, I’ve spent the entire day today helping a friend finish building her computer, discuss the future of a club we run together with her, brainstorm a future potential project with her, and finish a really good novel I’d been reading. I’ve also lazed around for hours, cancelled a training meeting I had to lead, failed to respond to emails and messages, and read novels instead of finishing my writing in time.

Progress has been made, but it’s slow. Will I find balance before classes begin in just a week?

Right now, my life revolves around work, school, and friends. Oftentimes, one of them takes over, leaving the others in the dust. Balance is essential, and it’s crucial that I learn how to maintain it.

I’ve fallen more and more behind on my 31 day writing goal; I’m 40 minutes late posting today’s writing.

I’m going to try to catch up, but we’ll see if I make any progress.

Remember to work hard, but also play harder.

Day 9/31